http://digg.com/d31EDo8
This kid is seriously taunting the police after he escaped jail. cuz.. YEAH.. that's a good idea.
Anyway, hope you all have a good new years! (I know I will!)
PS: in case you haven't heard, the Fox-Time Warner deal falls through tonight. Most likely, All Time-Warner cable people will loose all Fox Programming.
...yeah, you're real sad, I know.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
Time REALLY BLAZES BY!
Holy crap! It's been 95 years since the christmas truce of 1914!
95 YEARS since WWI ended. ... CRAZY.
...That is all.
http://www.history.com/content/christmas/christmas-truce-of-1914
95 YEARS since WWI ended. ... CRAZY.
...That is all.
http://www.history.com/content/christmas/christmas-truce-of-1914
Merry Birthday! (If it's your birthday!)
http://www.xkcd.com/680/
http://www.xkcd.com/679/
Merry WinterAyyamiChristmaChaunniKwanziKaDanTice everyone.
http://www.xkcd.com/679/
Merry WinterAyyamiChristmaChaunniKwanziKaDanTice everyone.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
ADORABLE GEEK WEDDING INVITE
http://digg.com/d31Dlm4
Also, on a complete sidenote, this is hilarious.
http://digg.com/d31DhGE
Also, on a complete sidenote, this is hilarious.
http://digg.com/d31DhGE
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
WOW
WOW. This kid's vicious.
https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdGguBNsTvjOwPPz5vWoNJo-m75MDa4MdflayFSCtLnbfFiYvb0nydF1dtWqlnJj8NVEfx0Vf8TrczgcC94ljGQRGdHFEHwb1sDa8NGGP-LIX8L-pNJdSwFifDAfcQqGZi6pc7LK-bBgI/s1600-h/58kXI.jpg
Terrible. But HILARIOUS.
https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdGguBNsTvjOwPPz5vWoNJo-m75MDa4MdflayFSCtLnbfFiYvb0nydF1dtWqlnJj8NVEfx0Vf8TrczgcC94ljGQRGdHFEHwb1sDa8NGGP-LIX8L-pNJdSwFifDAfcQqGZi6pc7LK-bBgI/s1600-h/58kXI.jpg
Terrible. But HILARIOUS.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
I never in my life thought I'd say this...
I never in my life thought I'd say this... but THANK GOD! I'VE GOT A MORNING SHIFT!!!
7:15-5:45, M-F. I'll actually get to see my wife during the week again! It's amazing!
Takes effect 1-10
7:15-5:45, M-F. I'll actually get to see my wife during the week again! It's amazing!
Takes effect 1-10
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
The Couch Potato's Ultimate Dream Realized...
http://www.newscientist.com/article/dn18286-lcd-screen-can-recognise-what-happens-in-front-of-it.html
An LCD screen has been invented that can "recognize" what happens in front of it. Imagine a TV that KNOWS when you leave the room and turns itself off for you! (Or imagine later versions... if you've fallen asleep!)
Loose the remote? no problem! point left. or right. or up or down.
*sigh* This is the future of television. Why am I not surprised?
An LCD screen has been invented that can "recognize" what happens in front of it. Imagine a TV that KNOWS when you leave the room and turns itself off for you! (Or imagine later versions... if you've fallen asleep!)
Loose the remote? no problem! point left. or right. or up or down.
*sigh* This is the future of television. Why am I not surprised?
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Americans Alone consume 3.6 ZETTABYTES a year... mostly pixels
Researchers from the University of California, San Diego, have determined how much information people use yearly in this country. And OH MY GOD. Though a lot of it is in the form of pixels, apparantly americans use around 3.6 ZETTABYTES every year... that's 36 Gigabytes a day PER CONSUMER.
http://digg.com/d31CM92
I know some my friends especially are thinking (couldn't I be using more than this?) Well consider how much you actually process yourself daily. Then, Average yourself against the rest of america and understand you have to compensate for everybody else. And you're still pullin 36 Gigs a day. Or, about the entirety (special features and everything) of over 5 (Completely Full) DVDs a day. This is the equivalent of EVERYONE IN AMERICA watching the ENTIRE Lord of the Rings saga... EVERY DAY. yeah you gamers... it's kind of like that.
For those of you who can even begin to comprehend the numbers, and aren't sure what a zetabyte is,
1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 bytes = 1000to the 7th power, or 10 to the 21st power.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zettabyte
MIND BLOWING.
http://digg.com/d31CM92
I know some my friends especially are thinking (couldn't I be using more than this?) Well consider how much you actually process yourself daily. Then, Average yourself against the rest of america and understand you have to compensate for everybody else. And you're still pullin 36 Gigs a day. Or, about the entirety (special features and everything) of over 5 (Completely Full) DVDs a day. This is the equivalent of EVERYONE IN AMERICA watching the ENTIRE Lord of the Rings saga... EVERY DAY. yeah you gamers... it's kind of like that.
For those of you who can even begin to comprehend the numbers, and aren't sure what a zetabyte is,
1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 bytes = 1000to the 7th power, or 10 to the 21st power.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zettabyte
MIND BLOWING.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Cats Vs Dogs... The Saga Continues (interesting)
I'm an avid cat person. My wife is a dog person. I look forward to an interesting rest of my life.
Regardless of where you stand on this scale, the cat vs. dog saga is an age old argument. This article shows some interesting comparisons, facts, and figures.
http://digg.com/d31CLGz
This will, of course, give each of you ammo against your fellows who prefer the companionship of "the OTHER animal" than the one whose company you enjoy... but then, this works both ways, after all.
Enjoy. ;-)
Regardless of where you stand on this scale, the cat vs. dog saga is an age old argument. This article shows some interesting comparisons, facts, and figures.
http://digg.com/d31CLGz
This will, of course, give each of you ammo against your fellows who prefer the companionship of "the OTHER animal" than the one whose company you enjoy... but then, this works both ways, after all.
Enjoy. ;-)
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
The Music Industry gets sued for Stealing Music. Yes, you read that right.
It's no secret I'm not a big fan of the recording industry. It's business practices are only interested in making the most money. They don't really care about protecting the artist as they claim... as is evident in this article.
Seriously... If they're stealing to make money then sue you for obtaining music without paying them (JUST LIKE THEY'RE DOING), what does that make them?
http://digg.com/d31C7ov
Seriously... If they're stealing to make money then sue you for obtaining music without paying them (JUST LIKE THEY'RE DOING), what does that make them?
http://digg.com/d31C7ov
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Victim of SUV crash re-injured when SUV plows through wall!
You've GOT to be kidding!
http://digg.com/odd_stuff/Victim_of_SUV_crash_re_injured_when_SUV_plows_through_wall
http://digg.com/odd_stuff/Victim_of_SUV_crash_re_injured_when_SUV_plows_through_wall
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Monday, November 30, 2009
Zombie Reagan - The Onion
Oh, Onion... what DON'T you do for me? From your piece on "Sony's latest peice of s***" to "a white girl died tragically instead of Glen Beck", you have my heart.
http://www.babelgum.com/4012651/zombie-reagan-raised-from-grave-lead-gop.html
http://www.babelgum.com/4012651/zombie-reagan-raised-from-grave-lead-gop.html
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Large Hadron Collider: Now Smashing Particles!
YAY we're smashing particles, and the world wasn't even sucked into a black hole! IMAGINE THAT!
http://digg.com/d31Awe1
http://digg.com/d31Awe1
Solid Hydrodgen... FINALLY
http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2009/11/091122161751.htm
FINALLY A STABLE WAY TO STORE SOLID HYDROGEN!!!
Now let's actually USE IT!!!
FINALLY A STABLE WAY TO STORE SOLID HYDROGEN!!!
Now let's actually USE IT!!!
Friday, November 20, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
Chrome OS launching
And how would you like that PC today, with windows, Linux, or Google's Chrome?
http://digg.com/d319uhY
http://digg.com/d319uhY
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Tattoo-like display?
Even I have my limits.
http://gizmodo.com/359018/cellphone-display-concept-designed-for-dracula-is-bloody-ridiculous
http://gizmodo.com/359018/cellphone-display-concept-designed-for-dracula-is-bloody-ridiculous
Feeling Inspired
I woke up this morning to my wife heading out the door to work. I spent some time watching some old movies, cleaned up a bit, and still had time, so I put on one of my favorite movies, V for Vendetta. Feeling inspired, I walked out the door to work and saw something I haven't seen in a long, long while.
Clouds.
YES.
Of course, I was so excited, I forgot to bring my leather jacket. (Something I will always use clouds as an excuse to wear). Oh well, mayhap there will be clouds tomorrow.
Of course, with the mix of V and the weather in my head, I got to wondering how many people have truly recognized there is something wrong with this ecosystem. I've said it before and I'm saying it again now: I know it's Arizona, but NOVEMBER shouldn't be 90 degrees. I used to bundle up on halloween, and this year I was hoping the chocolate wouldn't melt.
I used to come to Arizona for the holidays. There's a particular smell to winter air in Phoenix. It's always reminded me of the Holidays. I have yet to smell it this year, although the clouds hopefully will bring us closer.
I'm about to jack in at work... I just wanted to say today I feel inspired to do something... different. Of course, here I am at work. I hope opening night for Rachel's school's play is going to be more extraordinary than my evening. I hope they feel as inspired as I did when I stepped out the door.
Here's to inspiration.
Clouds.
YES.
Of course, I was so excited, I forgot to bring my leather jacket. (Something I will always use clouds as an excuse to wear). Oh well, mayhap there will be clouds tomorrow.
Of course, with the mix of V and the weather in my head, I got to wondering how many people have truly recognized there is something wrong with this ecosystem. I've said it before and I'm saying it again now: I know it's Arizona, but NOVEMBER shouldn't be 90 degrees. I used to bundle up on halloween, and this year I was hoping the chocolate wouldn't melt.
I used to come to Arizona for the holidays. There's a particular smell to winter air in Phoenix. It's always reminded me of the Holidays. I have yet to smell it this year, although the clouds hopefully will bring us closer.
I'm about to jack in at work... I just wanted to say today I feel inspired to do something... different. Of course, here I am at work. I hope opening night for Rachel's school's play is going to be more extraordinary than my evening. I hope they feel as inspired as I did when I stepped out the door.
Here's to inspiration.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Most hilarious device EVER
Do WANT. =p
(I'm so bad).
But MAN how much fun could you have with one of those things?
http://www.thinkgeek.com/gadgets/electronic/c427/
(I'm so bad).
But MAN how much fun could you have with one of those things?
http://www.thinkgeek.com/gadgets/electronic/c427/
Thursday, October 29, 2009
DONE.
Book 12.1 - DONE. Now I just have to wait for my copy to arrive. =p (TOR needs to learn how to ship a release properly).
Realization
I used to wonder if I shouldn't have been born in an earlier age. Being able to bring enlightenment to an unenlightened age (Not that I had any idea where this enlightenment may have come to me in an earlier age, mind you). It was a silly thought, but one I treasured. I've often romanticized medieval European culture, the enlightenment, Asiatic and Native American societies now long gone, Egyptian and African kingdoms now forgotten... but I've wondered what it would have been like to live at such a time.
But today I've come to a realization. Not that I was born too late, but that I was born too EARLY. We all were, in a sense.
The world should be further along than it is. But it isn't. And that's our fault. We are complacent to live our lives, the majority of us, rather than changing the world around us. It's a daunting task, seen as impossible by many, perhaps most. But it is not impossible.
It was only one-hundred and fifty years ago that half of our own nation endorsed so backward a concept as slavery. If you truly stop to consider the amount of time... it's the blink of an eye. You can count the number of Today's generations on one hand. And yes, this generation too is making headway towards enlightenment... but on what path?
When one thinks of what the world might be and compares it to what we are today, when one considers a unified front and the eventuality of a single governing body for our world, to discern issues of health care, education, and development... when one wipes away the national antagonisms and focuses on growth, the vision is indeed satisfying. It is natural. It is the point humanity should already be at.
And yet? We instead have leaders that bicker amongst one another, squabbling children complaining that they haven't gotten their way. Children who have amassed a horde of toys and refuse to even play with the other children, let alone share with them. Children who have yet to grow up.
Perhaps I am coming from the voice of a younger generation. Perhaps I don't see things as my grandfathers or their grandfathers did. But neither did they intend me to. They intended me to look upon the world with eyes that have seen their lives, and used their collective knowledge to determine the next course of action.
And I see now the course of action is to raise up those who will see this truth for themselves. The redundancy may serve as an irony, but I see now the importance of imprinting the importance of an advanced society on others. Of others acknowledging this reality.
Education. Education is the key. Knowledge is our greatest, our best weapon in this growth we have chosen to undertake. Development is necessary. A healthy populace, enabled and working and providing income for their children is all necessary, but education is the key.
The largest barrier thus far I can see, besides apathy and ignorance, is greed. Greedy administrators who give themselves larger salaries rather than funneling money to schools (Ironically hoping to better their own children's future). Greedy politicians who take money from drug companies rather than promote health care. Greedy drug-dealers who will make money no matter how many peoples' minds and bodies they have to poison to do it. Greedy tobacco and Alcohol companies... the list goes on and on.
But stepping back, greed only seems to be a symptom. The vast and ridiculousness of the wealth acquired could lift up the impoverished masses to develop a better world... clean energy, scientific improvements... faster internet, cleaner ecosystem, restoration of nature in cities and suburbs, true. But the greed ultimately stems from wanting to improve one's own life, often wanting to improve the life of the family and those the wealthy may actually care about. In essence, the problem is NOT the wealth of the wealthy. It is the lack of care or consideration for one's fellow man.
To take the wealth of the world and use it for the betterment of the world... that is what make's the wealthy great. To horde it, to squander it, even in the hopes of "one day" doing something wonderful with all that wealth... is ludicrous. Our world is in dire peril. One look out the window or at the news (if you're still willing to watch the news) can confirm it. If it doesn't affect you, what's the trouble? The trouble is your own limitations stem from that same apathy. YOU can't move forward because another is being apathetic.
If you are skilled but can't find a job, it's because someone isn't giving jobs. If you need new technology for your company to move forward and grow more jobs, it's because someone is barring the funding necessary from that technology being invented. If you are a congressman in charge of funding the economy and you've chosen not to balance your state's taxes and instead use your own income to better life for your son and your new wife, it could be because of the deal you were offered by the oil company to keep gas prices where they are. And if the CEO of that oil company is wondering how her daughter or brother got hooked on drugs while she wasn't around, it could be because of that person who didn't have a job and turned to dealing drugs.
The cycles and tempests of apathy and narrow-mindedness need to break. Make it with yourself. We are only in a world of squabbling children so long as squabbling children occupy it. It's harder for children to fight amongst themselves if they have an example... not even teachers, but leaders amongst their own peers. The educated, who will share what they know with others.
What, after all, would be the point of reason, without a world which needed rational minds?
But today I've come to a realization. Not that I was born too late, but that I was born too EARLY. We all were, in a sense.
The world should be further along than it is. But it isn't. And that's our fault. We are complacent to live our lives, the majority of us, rather than changing the world around us. It's a daunting task, seen as impossible by many, perhaps most. But it is not impossible.
It was only one-hundred and fifty years ago that half of our own nation endorsed so backward a concept as slavery. If you truly stop to consider the amount of time... it's the blink of an eye. You can count the number of Today's generations on one hand. And yes, this generation too is making headway towards enlightenment... but on what path?
When one thinks of what the world might be and compares it to what we are today, when one considers a unified front and the eventuality of a single governing body for our world, to discern issues of health care, education, and development... when one wipes away the national antagonisms and focuses on growth, the vision is indeed satisfying. It is natural. It is the point humanity should already be at.
And yet? We instead have leaders that bicker amongst one another, squabbling children complaining that they haven't gotten their way. Children who have amassed a horde of toys and refuse to even play with the other children, let alone share with them. Children who have yet to grow up.
Perhaps I am coming from the voice of a younger generation. Perhaps I don't see things as my grandfathers or their grandfathers did. But neither did they intend me to. They intended me to look upon the world with eyes that have seen their lives, and used their collective knowledge to determine the next course of action.
And I see now the course of action is to raise up those who will see this truth for themselves. The redundancy may serve as an irony, but I see now the importance of imprinting the importance of an advanced society on others. Of others acknowledging this reality.
Education. Education is the key. Knowledge is our greatest, our best weapon in this growth we have chosen to undertake. Development is necessary. A healthy populace, enabled and working and providing income for their children is all necessary, but education is the key.
The largest barrier thus far I can see, besides apathy and ignorance, is greed. Greedy administrators who give themselves larger salaries rather than funneling money to schools (Ironically hoping to better their own children's future). Greedy politicians who take money from drug companies rather than promote health care. Greedy drug-dealers who will make money no matter how many peoples' minds and bodies they have to poison to do it. Greedy tobacco and Alcohol companies... the list goes on and on.
But stepping back, greed only seems to be a symptom. The vast and ridiculousness of the wealth acquired could lift up the impoverished masses to develop a better world... clean energy, scientific improvements... faster internet, cleaner ecosystem, restoration of nature in cities and suburbs, true. But the greed ultimately stems from wanting to improve one's own life, often wanting to improve the life of the family and those the wealthy may actually care about. In essence, the problem is NOT the wealth of the wealthy. It is the lack of care or consideration for one's fellow man.
To take the wealth of the world and use it for the betterment of the world... that is what make's the wealthy great. To horde it, to squander it, even in the hopes of "one day" doing something wonderful with all that wealth... is ludicrous. Our world is in dire peril. One look out the window or at the news (if you're still willing to watch the news) can confirm it. If it doesn't affect you, what's the trouble? The trouble is your own limitations stem from that same apathy. YOU can't move forward because another is being apathetic.
If you are skilled but can't find a job, it's because someone isn't giving jobs. If you need new technology for your company to move forward and grow more jobs, it's because someone is barring the funding necessary from that technology being invented. If you are a congressman in charge of funding the economy and you've chosen not to balance your state's taxes and instead use your own income to better life for your son and your new wife, it could be because of the deal you were offered by the oil company to keep gas prices where they are. And if the CEO of that oil company is wondering how her daughter or brother got hooked on drugs while she wasn't around, it could be because of that person who didn't have a job and turned to dealing drugs.
The cycles and tempests of apathy and narrow-mindedness need to break. Make it with yourself. We are only in a world of squabbling children so long as squabbling children occupy it. It's harder for children to fight amongst themselves if they have an example... not even teachers, but leaders amongst their own peers. The educated, who will share what they know with others.
What, after all, would be the point of reason, without a world which needed rational minds?
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
News story - People 'anxious' when cut off from internet
well... I know my wife won't agree... but it's interesting. =)
http://digg.com/d3173hG
http://digg.com/d3173hG
Friday, October 9, 2009
Sweeeeet, We gotta add the LHC to Games like Civ4
Okay, those strategy games like Civilizations 4, where you research things like the Manhattan Project to get Nuclear capability... we gotta add the Large Hadron Collider for interstellar travel =D
http://digg.com/space/LHC_Test_Could_Lead_to_Hyperdrive_Space_Propulsion
http://digg.com/space/LHC_Test_Could_Lead_to_Hyperdrive_Space_Propulsion
Thursday, October 1, 2009
The Dark Lady's Chosen
(Fwded from Blogspot while at work)
YAY FOR "CHRONICLES OF THE NECROMANCER" BOOK 4 COMING OUT!!! WEWT!
http://www.chroniclesofthenecromancer.com/DarkLadysChosen.html
For those of you not on facebook - I'm off to VA in the morning, (First trip to DC), see you next week!
YAY FOR "CHRONICLES OF THE NECROMANCER" BOOK 4 COMING OUT!!! WEWT!
http://www.chroniclesofthenecromancer.com/DarkLadysChosen.html
For those of you not on facebook - I'm off to VA in the morning, (First trip to DC), see you next week!
Monday, September 28, 2009
Water on the moon!
So, there's water on the moon... and still, no one cares? COME ON PEOPLE.
http://digg.com/d315l8N
http://digg.com/d315l8N
SO true
Oh, so true.
Was talking with Rachel about this earlier this weekend... I'm SO glad I'll never have to go through this again. =)
http://digg.com/d315kBp
In other news: It's always refreshing to remember much of the rest of the world is... well... Sane.
http://blogs.abcnews.com/politicalpunch/2009/09/world-leader-to-obama-explain-why-theyre-putting-a-hitler-moustache-on-you/comments/page/5/
Was talking with Rachel about this earlier this weekend... I'm SO glad I'll never have to go through this again. =)
http://digg.com/d315kBp
In other news: It's always refreshing to remember much of the rest of the world is... well... Sane.
http://blogs.abcnews.com/politicalpunch/2009/09/world-leader-to-obama-explain-why-theyre-putting-a-hitler-moustache-on-you/comments/page/5/
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
What. An. Idiot.
(In my best Hermione Granger impression) -
What. An. Idiot.
http://www.journal-news.net/page/content.detail/id/525232.html#jj
What. An. Idiot.
http://www.journal-news.net/page/content.detail/id/525232.html#jj
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Late
So doing things at the last minute actually saved my butt today.
Being late by less than 30 minutes in a month, that's not too bad. I haven't been late in a long time.
But if you're late over 30 minutes, it takes out of the 40 hours for the year. Also they don't like habits.
I'm not often late and havent been in a long time. This morning, I had JUST enough time to get to Jamba Juice without being late. But when I discovered my wallet with my badge for work was at home, I ended up being a few minutes late, but saved myself having to get all the way to work, Turn Back home, then come BACK to work even LATER.
So ya, Procrastination: Not something I advise, but this time it worked. interesting.
In other news: I love the Onion's view of the world. Click on these fun countries! =p
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(Sorry Evan, it's not letting me comment, for some reason it does not recognize my profile)
huh. don't know how it didn't come up.
http://www.theonion.com/content/international/atlas
Being late by less than 30 minutes in a month, that's not too bad. I haven't been late in a long time.
But if you're late over 30 minutes, it takes out of the 40 hours for the year. Also they don't like habits.
I'm not often late and havent been in a long time. This morning, I had JUST enough time to get to Jamba Juice without being late. But when I discovered my wallet with my badge for work was at home, I ended up being a few minutes late, but saved myself having to get all the way to work, Turn Back home, then come BACK to work even LATER.
So ya, Procrastination: Not something I advise, but this time it worked. interesting.
In other news: I love the Onion's view of the world. Click on these fun countries! =p
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(Sorry Evan, it's not letting me comment, for some reason it does not recognize my profile)
huh. don't know how it didn't come up.
http://www.theonion.com/content/international/atlas
Thursday, September 3, 2009
PLEASE...
I should be getting off work any minute now - PLEASE let this guy's password work on the first try - PLEASE let this guy's password work on the first try... PLEASE let this guy's......................... CRAP!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Blah
ooooh! =D
http://www.frys-electronics-ads.com/ads/2009/08/28/43971/Samsung-1-5TB-Serial-ATA-300-Hard-Drive
*sigh* at work right now, just got off the phone with Rachel. I miss seeing her during the week. I REALLY wish our schedules were more in sync.
A lot of paperwork here these days... got to get through it on my breaks if I'm gonna get anything done.
At any rate, I gotta get back on the phones. So friggin busy lately. I know if there's a good problem to have, it's too much work, but dang.
http://www.frys-electronics-ads.com/ads/2009/08/28/43971/Samsung-1-5TB-Serial-ATA-300-Hard-Drive
*sigh* at work right now, just got off the phone with Rachel. I miss seeing her during the week. I REALLY wish our schedules were more in sync.
A lot of paperwork here these days... got to get through it on my breaks if I'm gonna get anything done.
At any rate, I gotta get back on the phones. So friggin busy lately. I know if there's a good problem to have, it's too much work, but dang.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
OMG
I'm going to be on this call FOREVER.
Meanwhile, another example of the evils of Microsoft.
http://www.cnn.com/2009/TECH/08/26/microsoft.ad.gaffe/index.html?iref=mpstoryview
Meanwhile, another example of the evils of Microsoft.
http://www.cnn.com/2009/TECH/08/26/microsoft.ad.gaffe/index.html?iref=mpstoryview
Monday, August 10, 2009
I so should not...
*headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk**headdesk*
I SO should not be looking at the prices of Video Capture devices and Hard Drives. 69 for a decent vc device, 80 for a 1TB hard drive... *sigh* I'm NEVER gonna get to archive my old videos, and they'll sit there until they're completely demagnetized. =/
I SO should not be looking at the prices of Video Capture devices and Hard Drives. 69 for a decent vc device, 80 for a 1TB hard drive... *sigh* I'm NEVER gonna get to archive my old videos, and they'll sit there until they're completely demagnetized. =/
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
I pose a question: If I were a Villian...
If I were a villain, what kind of a villain would I be?
The concept is so foreign to me, I'm trying to wrap my brain around it. Sith lord? Man who kidnaps fair maidens and locks them in a tower?
Whenever I play games like Fable, or Might and Magic, or Knights of the Old Republic... the games that let you choose a good or evil path, I almost ALWAYS play the good-guy first, then have to go back and play as an evil character just to see how it would have turned out. I don't know HOW to be evil. Okay, I DO, and I've done some pretty rat-bastard things, but I've grown and learnt since then. I put away the last of my deviancies when I got engaged, and I really think I life of crime would just be an unattractive lifestyle for me... I can't imagine hiding who I really am and what I'm really all about... What would you all say? Corporate shark? Serial scalper? ...Supreme burglar? Radio talk show host?
Wait, check that, It just came to me. Cyber-terrorist.
The concept is so foreign to me, I'm trying to wrap my brain around it. Sith lord? Man who kidnaps fair maidens and locks them in a tower?
Whenever I play games like Fable, or Might and Magic, or Knights of the Old Republic... the games that let you choose a good or evil path, I almost ALWAYS play the good-guy first, then have to go back and play as an evil character just to see how it would have turned out. I don't know HOW to be evil. Okay, I DO, and I've done some pretty rat-bastard things, but I've grown and learnt since then. I put away the last of my deviancies when I got engaged, and I really think I life of crime would just be an unattractive lifestyle for me... I can't imagine hiding who I really am and what I'm really all about... What would you all say? Corporate shark? Serial scalper? ...Supreme burglar? Radio talk show host?
Wait, check that, It just came to me. Cyber-terrorist.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
well, twitter's blocked at work now...
Well, Twitter's now blocked here at the office, and silly things I used to be able to tweet are now for naught. But I couldn't let all you star wars fans go without, so I'm creating a blog just for this link. Enjoy.
http://io9.com/5323912/what-if-greedo-really-shot-first
http://io9.com/5323912/what-if-greedo-really-shot-first
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Workplace turned upside down
I'm LIVID. No, seriously livid. Everything I knew about the company I worked for has totally been turned upside down.
There have always been 2 constants at 2wire. Through mass layoffs of Agents or team leads or Loosing a night manager, After loosing our ENTIRE level 3 department, there have continued been these 2 constants. Frustrated customers, and Robin McCull.
This guy used to ran the training classes before he became a supervisor. He's got more knowledge about the way things work at the company in his pinky, his LEFT pinky, than all of management. The guy everyone went to if they had a question that no one could answer.
You've gotta be Sh*tting me. "Performance issues"???!!! What a f***ing way to say "we don't want to keep paying you what you're making", especially when the important numbers are through the roof!
No I'm Pissed. This is the supervisor that fought Blood, tooth, and Nail for me to get promoted after a year and a half on the job. Whose team I almost didn't leave to join Southeast. I likely wouldn't WORK in IT today if it wasn't for this guy. And my company let this man GO?
Maybe I'm taking this personally. So what. God knows lately I've been frustrated with some of the "brighter" decisions forced on us by our clients recently. WE ARE NOT OUR CLIENTS. But we're starting to act like it.
Rob, I've never known anyone to fight like you for the people who've worked for you. Don't let this take the wind out from under you, Don't stop fighting for yourself. You're too damned good a man to let this affect you like most of us might. You keep fighting Damnit, and get the job you deserve. You DO deserve that much.
There have always been 2 constants at 2wire. Through mass layoffs of Agents or team leads or Loosing a night manager, After loosing our ENTIRE level 3 department, there have continued been these 2 constants. Frustrated customers, and Robin McCull.
This guy used to ran the training classes before he became a supervisor. He's got more knowledge about the way things work at the company in his pinky, his LEFT pinky, than all of management. The guy everyone went to if they had a question that no one could answer.
You've gotta be Sh*tting me. "Performance issues"???!!! What a f***ing way to say "we don't want to keep paying you what you're making", especially when the important numbers are through the roof!
No I'm Pissed. This is the supervisor that fought Blood, tooth, and Nail for me to get promoted after a year and a half on the job. Whose team I almost didn't leave to join Southeast. I likely wouldn't WORK in IT today if it wasn't for this guy. And my company let this man GO?
Maybe I'm taking this personally. So what. God knows lately I've been frustrated with some of the "brighter" decisions forced on us by our clients recently. WE ARE NOT OUR CLIENTS. But we're starting to act like it.
Rob, I've never known anyone to fight like you for the people who've worked for you. Don't let this take the wind out from under you, Don't stop fighting for yourself. You're too damned good a man to let this affect you like most of us might. You keep fighting Damnit, and get the job you deserve. You DO deserve that much.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Berating the troops
There's a practice in modern day business that has been borrowed from the military, a very ineffective practice often used by inexperienced leaders and supervisors. Berating the troops.
Explaining to your most senior troops all the ills they are performing, and rather than offering to help them achieve higher standards, telling them you don't believe their level of surprise or concern over their current level of achievement, is a telltale sign of someone trying to achieve a leadership role with absolutely no idea of how to go about it. This is especially common with Sergeants given a new command; those that have not had much interaction with their troops.
Rather than trying to get to know their troops, they decide that barrier needs to come up. That's fine. A level of division is not necessarily an unhealthy thing. Still, many senior troops watch as sergeant after sergeant flies by, making the same mistakes. Many a Private-First-Class goes through a slew of sergeants before themselves being made a corporal under a new command.
Any Lieutenant will tell you in these situations, the sergeant, oblivious to the situation, is under as much scrutiny and under as watchful an eye as the privates... more so, in fact. What most fail to realize is they will not accomplish the goals to improve themselves if they are adverse to the differences in personality of their troops.
Some of us in this world outlast many sergeants. And if we are content in our position, we will be joyous in times of plenty, and patient in times of tests. Hopefully, both Private-first-class and Sergeant come out improved. If not... well, Fortunately, the military isn't the only path to self-improvement.
Explaining to your most senior troops all the ills they are performing, and rather than offering to help them achieve higher standards, telling them you don't believe their level of surprise or concern over their current level of achievement, is a telltale sign of someone trying to achieve a leadership role with absolutely no idea of how to go about it. This is especially common with Sergeants given a new command; those that have not had much interaction with their troops.
Rather than trying to get to know their troops, they decide that barrier needs to come up. That's fine. A level of division is not necessarily an unhealthy thing. Still, many senior troops watch as sergeant after sergeant flies by, making the same mistakes. Many a Private-First-Class goes through a slew of sergeants before themselves being made a corporal under a new command.
Any Lieutenant will tell you in these situations, the sergeant, oblivious to the situation, is under as much scrutiny and under as watchful an eye as the privates... more so, in fact. What most fail to realize is they will not accomplish the goals to improve themselves if they are adverse to the differences in personality of their troops.
Some of us in this world outlast many sergeants. And if we are content in our position, we will be joyous in times of plenty, and patient in times of tests. Hopefully, both Private-first-class and Sergeant come out improved. If not... well, Fortunately, the military isn't the only path to self-improvement.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Ode to ER
Release me from the shackles of my weeklong prison
Wing my flight into the celestial realms of relaxation and comfort
Ebb the tide of my strain and discomfort
Wash away the weariness and turmoil
Make hasten the refreshing spring of reunion with my beloved
let soar the joyous song of exhiliration and praise
Nestle me in the bosom of comfort,
And if thou canst not, at least let me ride the winds of change.
Change from a struggle day in, and day out
Until at last, the pattern has come full circle,
and I must needs return to the toil of my labours
But until then, O sweet release, come early,
And send me home from this weeklong commission
For of a certainty, it is friday,
And the longing for home is upon me
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ER is the Early release system at work that allows us to leave work early. Apparently, my ER button's broke, because there are no calls coming in, and I haven't received my e-mail yet. =p
Wing my flight into the celestial realms of relaxation and comfort
Ebb the tide of my strain and discomfort
Wash away the weariness and turmoil
Make hasten the refreshing spring of reunion with my beloved
let soar the joyous song of exhiliration and praise
Nestle me in the bosom of comfort,
And if thou canst not, at least let me ride the winds of change.
Change from a struggle day in, and day out
Until at last, the pattern has come full circle,
and I must needs return to the toil of my labours
But until then, O sweet release, come early,
And send me home from this weeklong commission
For of a certainty, it is friday,
And the longing for home is upon me
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ER is the Early release system at work that allows us to leave work early. Apparently, my ER button's broke, because there are no calls coming in, and I haven't received my e-mail yet. =p
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Thoughts of the day
I just read a very touching blog from Rachel's dad about 20 minutes ago. It's the 20 year mark of the passing of his father. I'd comment further, but nothing I say here will change or do justice to the solemness of the occasion, so I'm just going to move on.
My computer's being a pain... again. That's what I get for keeping windows on it regardless of my knowledge of the reasons not to... but there are some things I just want to keep it around for. Mainly DVD shrink and gaming / video drivers.
Speaking of Gaming: I've decided I want to, at some point, make a game based on the world I'm creating for the Phoenixmage novels. It may not have to be very big, but I've got a great Idea for a system for it.
Did you ever play the old Might and Magic games? Not the Heroes of Might and Magic strategy games, but the Role-playing ones for the windows 95/98 machines? It was a turn-based Role Play system, one of the first of its kind, though the graphics were behind. It was all in First person view in a 3d world, your Four characters would all be able to fire in turn of one another while you were running or jumping or whatever as a group.
Well, that wouldn't necessarily fly today. But what I was thinking, was a turn based, 1st/3rd person view (can switch between), where you can switch between four characters. Much as with the Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic engine, (which had 3 characters), you could freeze the action and enter a turn-based mode, where you program what your characters are going to do for their next few moves. Only, What I want to create is the ability to stay (and I reccomend 1st person for this, though you may want to glance at 3rd to get a better Idea of the situation) in one view frozen, perform an action, and have the engine perform your action until the next person's initiative hits, where you are switched to THEIR perspective and the action is frozen again. Of course, NPC's will have their turn in the initiative, and all that fun stuff. If this system doesn't tickle your fancy, I suggest a trigger for an auto-program ability or AI for the characters you don't want to use. Therefore, in this engine there would be 3 methods of combat: 1.) Standard FPS (your characters are in AI mode, Much as with the Star Wars: Republic Commando games), 2.) KOTOR-style Turn based, and 3.) Might-and-Magic style turn based, where you are auto-switched between characters per-move.
Of course, I'm a perfectionist when it comes to these things, So I imagine this system with Oblivion style Graphics, and an Oblivion style map and/or Campaign.
The game would not be complete unless you had the ability to choose midway through the game whether your characters want to become Good or Evil. I suppose it's not UNHEARD OF for a Necromancer to fight with a Paladin, but... okay who am I kidding yes it is. Perhaps Good/Evil decided characters won't be able to play in the same group... or perhaps once the "party" has made a decion... hmm, we'll see.
=)
I would so love to make this game.
My computer's being a pain... again. That's what I get for keeping windows on it regardless of my knowledge of the reasons not to... but there are some things I just want to keep it around for. Mainly DVD shrink and gaming / video drivers.
Speaking of Gaming: I've decided I want to, at some point, make a game based on the world I'm creating for the Phoenixmage novels. It may not have to be very big, but I've got a great Idea for a system for it.
Did you ever play the old Might and Magic games? Not the Heroes of Might and Magic strategy games, but the Role-playing ones for the windows 95/98 machines? It was a turn-based Role Play system, one of the first of its kind, though the graphics were behind. It was all in First person view in a 3d world, your Four characters would all be able to fire in turn of one another while you were running or jumping or whatever as a group.
Well, that wouldn't necessarily fly today. But what I was thinking, was a turn based, 1st/3rd person view (can switch between), where you can switch between four characters. Much as with the Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic engine, (which had 3 characters), you could freeze the action and enter a turn-based mode, where you program what your characters are going to do for their next few moves. Only, What I want to create is the ability to stay (and I reccomend 1st person for this, though you may want to glance at 3rd to get a better Idea of the situation) in one view frozen, perform an action, and have the engine perform your action until the next person's initiative hits, where you are switched to THEIR perspective and the action is frozen again. Of course, NPC's will have their turn in the initiative, and all that fun stuff. If this system doesn't tickle your fancy, I suggest a trigger for an auto-program ability or AI for the characters you don't want to use. Therefore, in this engine there would be 3 methods of combat: 1.) Standard FPS (your characters are in AI mode, Much as with the Star Wars: Republic Commando games), 2.) KOTOR-style Turn based, and 3.) Might-and-Magic style turn based, where you are auto-switched between characters per-move.
Of course, I'm a perfectionist when it comes to these things, So I imagine this system with Oblivion style Graphics, and an Oblivion style map and/or Campaign.
The game would not be complete unless you had the ability to choose midway through the game whether your characters want to become Good or Evil. I suppose it's not UNHEARD OF for a Necromancer to fight with a Paladin, but... okay who am I kidding yes it is. Perhaps Good/Evil decided characters won't be able to play in the same group... or perhaps once the "party" has made a decion... hmm, we'll see.
=)
I would so love to make this game.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Video Tech-geek ramble.
Okay, I don't know if I'm just over-caffeinated or WHAT, but I feel like I've already been at work for five hours. I'm thinking about the fact that JUST before I got here I FINALLY managed to get the AVI to DVD burning properly on my computer, which is perfect because now I will be able to archive all of my old files in a digital manner that can be easily read by my home recorder. now hopefully it will also be able to easily make the book time a ROM on DVD+R's, so there is no problem with Non-recordable standard players.
And yet, now I'm TOTALLY itching to have a blue-ray recorder, now that they're only 150 bucks. NOT so much for the video, but for data archiving.
I'm jittery. It's gotta be the caffeine. (Makes me feel bad sitting next to one of my Mormon friends at work, actually). Right now all I can think about is a bloody Blue-ray burner. And get this: I don't even have a decent LCD monitor right now! I should be TOTALLY focused on that. I'm thinking just a little 20" 720p 1680×1050 monitor. Can probably swing that for 150 bucks.
Oooookay after that call that lasted half an hour I think my caffeine's starting to slow just a smidge... the world is going a more normal speed.
At any rate, I'm TOTALLY craving the ability to store 25 gig's on a single disk. My .5 terabyte external WD (that's only really like 465 gigs) just isn't doing the trick. There's just so much that I need to DO! Speaking of which, I have old school video on HI8 I need to record. GAH. I don't have a HI8 player! Mayhap I can borrow the parent's old bust camcorder and find a battery for it or something until I can digitize it. the thing hasn't worked in years, but still...
Okay Focus Cody. You have a wedding to worry about. Ice-pak the technolust. It just feels like I've FINALLY re-captured the ability to do what I wanted to do five years ago with my video, and I already feel I'm WAY far behind. I still have a ton of VHS tapes to record onto digital, and though they're mostly SLP vhs, I'm still not sure what I should do as far as the playback speed / quality balance for the DVD. I know the quality is already degraded, but how far is too far when I'm degrading the DVD's quality, too? I tried the lowest setting and it was like 3 times worse than the analog distortion. But That means I'll need like 3 DVD's per VHS tape if I don't degrade the quality. (Hence possibly part of my desire for Blue Ray recording).
GRaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Any suggestions would be helpful I suppose. Mayhap I should just video capture card and run it all into my computer for later archival, rather than the other way around. That, of course, will require a video capture card... but that can't POSSIBLY cost as much as all the DVD's I would go through to record my VHS footage properly.
*sigh*
"Dear Santa. I know it's April, but please send me 4 terabytes of storage and the means to digitize and transcode all of my archives. Sincerely, Cody."
And yet, now I'm TOTALLY itching to have a blue-ray recorder, now that they're only 150 bucks. NOT so much for the video, but for data archiving.
I'm jittery. It's gotta be the caffeine. (Makes me feel bad sitting next to one of my Mormon friends at work, actually). Right now all I can think about is a bloody Blue-ray burner. And get this: I don't even have a decent LCD monitor right now! I should be TOTALLY focused on that. I'm thinking just a little 20" 720p 1680×1050 monitor. Can probably swing that for 150 bucks.
Oooookay after that call that lasted half an hour I think my caffeine's starting to slow just a smidge... the world is going a more normal speed.
At any rate, I'm TOTALLY craving the ability to store 25 gig's on a single disk. My .5 terabyte external WD (that's only really like 465 gigs) just isn't doing the trick. There's just so much that I need to DO! Speaking of which, I have old school video on HI8 I need to record. GAH. I don't have a HI8 player! Mayhap I can borrow the parent's old bust camcorder and find a battery for it or something until I can digitize it. the thing hasn't worked in years, but still...
Okay Focus Cody. You have a wedding to worry about. Ice-pak the technolust. It just feels like I've FINALLY re-captured the ability to do what I wanted to do five years ago with my video, and I already feel I'm WAY far behind. I still have a ton of VHS tapes to record onto digital, and though they're mostly SLP vhs, I'm still not sure what I should do as far as the playback speed / quality balance for the DVD. I know the quality is already degraded, but how far is too far when I'm degrading the DVD's quality, too? I tried the lowest setting and it was like 3 times worse than the analog distortion. But That means I'll need like 3 DVD's per VHS tape if I don't degrade the quality. (Hence possibly part of my desire for Blue Ray recording).
GRaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Any suggestions would be helpful I suppose. Mayhap I should just video capture card and run it all into my computer for later archival, rather than the other way around. That, of course, will require a video capture card... but that can't POSSIBLY cost as much as all the DVD's I would go through to record my VHS footage properly.
*sigh*
"Dear Santa. I know it's April, but please send me 4 terabytes of storage and the means to digitize and transcode all of my archives. Sincerely, Cody."
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
What I don't want...
What I don't want, is to be that guy whose wife goes home after work, then makes and eats dinner alone, straightens up the apartment because she's lonely, watches some TV or putzes around on the computer, then, when I FINALLY get home, she's ready for bed.
I don't want to be that guy. I realize now if I don't changer my hours soon, that's the marriage I'm consigning her to.
Damnit if I can't sacrifice my "late" hours for her happiness. Damnit if I can't be a worthy husband for her. Damnit if I can't change the way I've lived the last five years for the woman I've asked to marry me and share my life. Otherwise, I'd deserve this hole I'm digging myself into.
I love the woman I'm going to marry. I'd do anything for her. So how then do I balance being responsible when I barely wake up in time for work as it is? I certainly can't loose my job by not showing up on time. That would negate the whole "being responsible" thing. But so would leaving her to lonely nights and single place-settings for dinner.
Looks like I'm going to become a morning person. I'd better get my S*** together soon. The wedding's in 102 days (For which I am smiling GRANDLY). Invitations are already in the mail. (Mostly, I still have a couple addresses I need to collect).
I don't want to be that guy. I realize now if I don't changer my hours soon, that's the marriage I'm consigning her to.
Damnit if I can't sacrifice my "late" hours for her happiness. Damnit if I can't be a worthy husband for her. Damnit if I can't change the way I've lived the last five years for the woman I've asked to marry me and share my life. Otherwise, I'd deserve this hole I'm digging myself into.
I love the woman I'm going to marry. I'd do anything for her. So how then do I balance being responsible when I barely wake up in time for work as it is? I certainly can't loose my job by not showing up on time. That would negate the whole "being responsible" thing. But so would leaving her to lonely nights and single place-settings for dinner.
Looks like I'm going to become a morning person. I'd better get my S*** together soon. The wedding's in 102 days (For which I am smiling GRANDLY). Invitations are already in the mail. (Mostly, I still have a couple addresses I need to collect).
Thursday, April 2, 2009
29
Spoiler alert. The first part of this is a bit whiny. The rest mildly epiphanous.
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twen⋅ty-nine: [twuhn--tee-nahyn],
n
1. The awkward transitional period ending what were supposed to be the "best years of your life", but still not yet in the realm of "thirty-something".
2. The age where it's no longer cool for you (Specifically) to do things that used to be cool for you to do.
3. A time by which you'd better have developed a stable relationship, because if you haven't... you're mentally screwed.
I'm feeling a strange emptiness. Perhaps it's the fact that I'm still living alone instead of with my soon-to-be-wife, or perhaps that's just a small part of it. ...definitely just a part of it.
That sounded wrong. I'll try it this way. A year and a half ago, I was a complete person, perfectly content with myself. Now that I feel so united with the woman I'm going to marry, and now that we're becoming one unit instead of two individuals, it's getting harder to not always have her in my daily life.
Also, Part of me misses California. Terribly. I think about the places that I, only in the last few years there, developed a fondness for. But I know it's really the friends and connections I made out there that I miss. I could be anywhere with people I know, love, and care about, and be happy.
Another part of me spent a chunk of those transitional years gaming online. (granted, that didn't go over so well with my computer crashing every 20 minutes). In many respects, it gave me an outlet, a place to converse with others with whom I had a similar personality, or shared certain interests. It gave me some connection. Since I'm not one to frequent bars like the majority of men my age, with whom I lack that in common, it was one more place I could feel like myself.
But now, everything is different. I know what it is to have that person I want to spend the rest of my life with. She wants to spend it with me. And yet we're just not THERE yet. We've scheduled a marriage we both want in a sensible time frame, but my brain doesn't seem to care about sense at the moment. I feel like we're reaching towards this line and it's stretching patience so thin... like pulling a taffy over an incredible distance. It's INCREDIBLY frustrating, not to have her here when I come home. Not to be synchronized onto the same schedule. Not to be able to talk about our common interests at night or even just have her here and both be futzing around on the computer.
God this sounds whiny.
It's not like it's anything unexpected, and it's certainly nothing I can't handle. It's just... disorienting, I suppose. I feel out of place. The fact that I turn 30 two months after our wedding (108 days to go!) makes it feel like I just want to GET ON WITH IT.
It's not the wedding I'm concerned about, I suppose. I just like to see myself as a young, fun-loving kind of guy. I guess I've been that guy for too long and I need to move on. Sometimes I feel that would be easier if they'd let me finish school already. As far as THAT goes, It's getting to the point I just want to sue everyone into oblivion. But God-D***it, I'm going back to school As soon as is HUMANLY possible. At this point, I don't even care if it's the History Masters. I just want a better piece of paper than I've got. I've seriously considered Cisco networking, but that'll be a whole new branch of my current employment field I have a lot left to learn on, but it places some good job opportunities my way. Then again, I want a career. Not a job. I often feel like the only 29 year old unsatisfied with his education and employment status, willing to change it, but hindered. I know I'm looking so many good things I have going for me when I say this, but it's so FRUSTRATING... all the work I've done thus far, amounting to what I have to show for it.
Then again.
What I have to show for it is something few others (especially in THIS state), can claim. I grew up near some of the wealthiest and most decadent people on the planet, (Lets face it, San Diego is that close to Hollywood), Moved to a third world country and grew a disdain for my own hometown, moved BACK to the states just in time to find myself whirlwinded into helping facilitate the growth of a digital revolution, and because of my "educational limbo", I had the chance to help kids grow up, learn about myself, expand my social circles, And once I'm finally truly on my own, severed from the ties of my past and ready to move forward with my life, I fall in love with a close friend of over a decade, who I'm lucky enough is as crazy about me as I am about her. She's my best friend, my confidant, and I would be so much less than I am without her.
All of that makes the piece of paper seem paltry in comparison.
The lessons of my life cannot be summed up in a masters degree. Nor can they be summed up were I to write this blog for the rest of my life. One phase of my life is ending, another is on the horizon.
Sometimes, I guess, if you're watching the horizon, it just seems it takes the sun FOREVER to finally rise on the new day.
After writing this, I now recognize my impatience is simply wishing it would get here already. Knowing now why I've been so frustrated, I can smile at my own ridiculousness, shake my head at myself, remind myself what a lucky guy I am, and look up again into the horizon, clearly anticipating my new day.
108 days left to go.
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twen⋅ty-nine: [twuhn--tee-nahyn],
n
1. The awkward transitional period ending what were supposed to be the "best years of your life", but still not yet in the realm of "thirty-something".
2. The age where it's no longer cool for you (Specifically) to do things that used to be cool for you to do.
3. A time by which you'd better have developed a stable relationship, because if you haven't... you're mentally screwed.
I'm feeling a strange emptiness. Perhaps it's the fact that I'm still living alone instead of with my soon-to-be-wife, or perhaps that's just a small part of it. ...definitely just a part of it.
That sounded wrong. I'll try it this way. A year and a half ago, I was a complete person, perfectly content with myself. Now that I feel so united with the woman I'm going to marry, and now that we're becoming one unit instead of two individuals, it's getting harder to not always have her in my daily life.
Also, Part of me misses California. Terribly. I think about the places that I, only in the last few years there, developed a fondness for. But I know it's really the friends and connections I made out there that I miss. I could be anywhere with people I know, love, and care about, and be happy.
Another part of me spent a chunk of those transitional years gaming online. (granted, that didn't go over so well with my computer crashing every 20 minutes). In many respects, it gave me an outlet, a place to converse with others with whom I had a similar personality, or shared certain interests. It gave me some connection. Since I'm not one to frequent bars like the majority of men my age, with whom I lack that in common, it was one more place I could feel like myself.
But now, everything is different. I know what it is to have that person I want to spend the rest of my life with. She wants to spend it with me. And yet we're just not THERE yet. We've scheduled a marriage we both want in a sensible time frame, but my brain doesn't seem to care about sense at the moment. I feel like we're reaching towards this line and it's stretching patience so thin... like pulling a taffy over an incredible distance. It's INCREDIBLY frustrating, not to have her here when I come home. Not to be synchronized onto the same schedule. Not to be able to talk about our common interests at night or even just have her here and both be futzing around on the computer.
God this sounds whiny.
It's not like it's anything unexpected, and it's certainly nothing I can't handle. It's just... disorienting, I suppose. I feel out of place. The fact that I turn 30 two months after our wedding (108 days to go!) makes it feel like I just want to GET ON WITH IT.
It's not the wedding I'm concerned about, I suppose. I just like to see myself as a young, fun-loving kind of guy. I guess I've been that guy for too long and I need to move on. Sometimes I feel that would be easier if they'd let me finish school already. As far as THAT goes, It's getting to the point I just want to sue everyone into oblivion. But God-D***it, I'm going back to school As soon as is HUMANLY possible. At this point, I don't even care if it's the History Masters. I just want a better piece of paper than I've got. I've seriously considered Cisco networking, but that'll be a whole new branch of my current employment field I have a lot left to learn on, but it places some good job opportunities my way. Then again, I want a career. Not a job. I often feel like the only 29 year old unsatisfied with his education and employment status, willing to change it, but hindered. I know I'm looking so many good things I have going for me when I say this, but it's so FRUSTRATING... all the work I've done thus far, amounting to what I have to show for it.
Then again.
What I have to show for it is something few others (especially in THIS state), can claim. I grew up near some of the wealthiest and most decadent people on the planet, (Lets face it, San Diego is that close to Hollywood), Moved to a third world country and grew a disdain for my own hometown, moved BACK to the states just in time to find myself whirlwinded into helping facilitate the growth of a digital revolution, and because of my "educational limbo", I had the chance to help kids grow up, learn about myself, expand my social circles, And once I'm finally truly on my own, severed from the ties of my past and ready to move forward with my life, I fall in love with a close friend of over a decade, who I'm lucky enough is as crazy about me as I am about her. She's my best friend, my confidant, and I would be so much less than I am without her.
All of that makes the piece of paper seem paltry in comparison.
The lessons of my life cannot be summed up in a masters degree. Nor can they be summed up were I to write this blog for the rest of my life. One phase of my life is ending, another is on the horizon.
Sometimes, I guess, if you're watching the horizon, it just seems it takes the sun FOREVER to finally rise on the new day.
After writing this, I now recognize my impatience is simply wishing it would get here already. Knowing now why I've been so frustrated, I can smile at my own ridiculousness, shake my head at myself, remind myself what a lucky guy I am, and look up again into the horizon, clearly anticipating my new day.
108 days left to go.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Ambition and comfort
I've often linked ambition with ruthlessness.
The more ambitious a person is, the more they seem to want to get ahead in the world. There's a hunger there - a hunger to better one's own standing. Now this is not an unhealthy thing intrinsically, indeed, we should all desire to better ourselves day in and day out. But I've discovered there are some types of standing where "betterment" is not necessarily better.
According to an old saying, Truly blessed is the man that can climb both material and spiritual ladders at the same time. But I've often wondered if climbing a material ladder allows for true spiritual growth. Indeed, it seems to my mind a spiritual man would want to either give his money to causes more worthy than himself, or perhaps invest it into a purpose that will benefit the world in some way, shape, or form. Yet in order to give this wealth in a pure-hearted manner, one must first obtain it.
Therefore, ambition seems at first glance necessary to fulfill this goal. But digging a little deeper, we find flaws with this theory.
Ambition is, if nothing else, closely intertwined with competition. In order to get ahead, you must succeed where others have failed. Regardless of how hard you have ACTUALLY worked, if your results are seen to bear more fruit than those against whom you are competing, you are ahead. Working smarter, not harder, is the key to success.
This breeds, for the strategist, opportunities in which sabotage can work in your favor. It becomes easier to get ahead if you don't care who you're stepping on. Indeed, the higher one climbs in the echelon, the more they discover that others have sabotaged their opponents already, and find themselves now amongst bitter, ruthless competition.
How often is it the person who desired to change the world for the better and climbed to the top to do so, found themselves destroying the very principles they once found motivating them? How often did they turn around and realize they had become what they desired to compete against? Or worse, how often have they NOT realized it?
On the flip side of the coin, I see the comfortable. Those who are content in who they are, what they are, and what they have in life. They may not have everything they want, but they are happy with what they have... most often, they have found a satisfaction in which their employment status, or material gain, or social circles have come secondary to the core of who they are. I generally see the blue collar worker who feel they make a difference in the daily lives of others in this category: The teacher. The nurse. The construction worker. From the laborer at the recycling plant to the secretary at the business office, these people, though they desire (and very often deserve) recognition for their work, often find not only is the work in some way satisfying, but they also have other satisfactions outside, a life in which the need to be calculating in one's upward climb comes secondary to the need to be at home with their loved ones, or at play with their friends, or at study in their betterment of themselves.
These I see as the content. The comfortable. Don't get me wrong, such a way of life in and of itself requires a constant battle against the natural inertia that drives us as individuals to idleness and sloth, (A battle the ambitious are often unaware they are fighting as they scramble frantically up their ladders), but there are worse battles to fight, especially if one derives satisfaction from what they do every day, or from the goals they are working to obtain... or perhaps from simply keeping their children well-fed and educated, moving towards a life better than the one they themselves had.
Perhaps you agree with me. Perhaps you see my point of view as simple, maybe quaint; Or perhaps you read this and think I lack a healthy motivation. Most, I imagine, will not read this or consider it at all. Regardless of what anyone else thinks, I write this not out of any desire to promote myself or force my view upon others, I write this to express myself, in part, I suppose, out of a healthy satisfaction of who I am.
Again, do not mistake me. If a large sum fell into my lap, I would do my best to better myself, my loved ones, and the world with it as I see fit. Perhaps it is purely my lack of ambition that keeps this from happening. Perhaps it's the wisdom, mercy, and grace of a power greater than myself that keeps me from failing tests I do not have the capacity to pass that keeps me from becoming what I hope never to become. Then again, maybe I'm simply not among the lucky. Regardless of the reason, the case remains. I am in this situation, and I feel I am making the best of it by being content with what I have. I try to be generous in times of plenty, patient in times of difficulty, and rather I seek to better myself in seeking the best life I can live, preparing for something greater than this life.
Perhaps, that, then, is the ambition of the comfortable.
The more ambitious a person is, the more they seem to want to get ahead in the world. There's a hunger there - a hunger to better one's own standing. Now this is not an unhealthy thing intrinsically, indeed, we should all desire to better ourselves day in and day out. But I've discovered there are some types of standing where "betterment" is not necessarily better.
According to an old saying, Truly blessed is the man that can climb both material and spiritual ladders at the same time. But I've often wondered if climbing a material ladder allows for true spiritual growth. Indeed, it seems to my mind a spiritual man would want to either give his money to causes more worthy than himself, or perhaps invest it into a purpose that will benefit the world in some way, shape, or form. Yet in order to give this wealth in a pure-hearted manner, one must first obtain it.
Therefore, ambition seems at first glance necessary to fulfill this goal. But digging a little deeper, we find flaws with this theory.
Ambition is, if nothing else, closely intertwined with competition. In order to get ahead, you must succeed where others have failed. Regardless of how hard you have ACTUALLY worked, if your results are seen to bear more fruit than those against whom you are competing, you are ahead. Working smarter, not harder, is the key to success.
This breeds, for the strategist, opportunities in which sabotage can work in your favor. It becomes easier to get ahead if you don't care who you're stepping on. Indeed, the higher one climbs in the echelon, the more they discover that others have sabotaged their opponents already, and find themselves now amongst bitter, ruthless competition.
How often is it the person who desired to change the world for the better and climbed to the top to do so, found themselves destroying the very principles they once found motivating them? How often did they turn around and realize they had become what they desired to compete against? Or worse, how often have they NOT realized it?
On the flip side of the coin, I see the comfortable. Those who are content in who they are, what they are, and what they have in life. They may not have everything they want, but they are happy with what they have... most often, they have found a satisfaction in which their employment status, or material gain, or social circles have come secondary to the core of who they are. I generally see the blue collar worker who feel they make a difference in the daily lives of others in this category: The teacher. The nurse. The construction worker. From the laborer at the recycling plant to the secretary at the business office, these people, though they desire (and very often deserve) recognition for their work, often find not only is the work in some way satisfying, but they also have other satisfactions outside, a life in which the need to be calculating in one's upward climb comes secondary to the need to be at home with their loved ones, or at play with their friends, or at study in their betterment of themselves.
These I see as the content. The comfortable. Don't get me wrong, such a way of life in and of itself requires a constant battle against the natural inertia that drives us as individuals to idleness and sloth, (A battle the ambitious are often unaware they are fighting as they scramble frantically up their ladders), but there are worse battles to fight, especially if one derives satisfaction from what they do every day, or from the goals they are working to obtain... or perhaps from simply keeping their children well-fed and educated, moving towards a life better than the one they themselves had.
Perhaps you agree with me. Perhaps you see my point of view as simple, maybe quaint; Or perhaps you read this and think I lack a healthy motivation. Most, I imagine, will not read this or consider it at all. Regardless of what anyone else thinks, I write this not out of any desire to promote myself or force my view upon others, I write this to express myself, in part, I suppose, out of a healthy satisfaction of who I am.
Again, do not mistake me. If a large sum fell into my lap, I would do my best to better myself, my loved ones, and the world with it as I see fit. Perhaps it is purely my lack of ambition that keeps this from happening. Perhaps it's the wisdom, mercy, and grace of a power greater than myself that keeps me from failing tests I do not have the capacity to pass that keeps me from becoming what I hope never to become. Then again, maybe I'm simply not among the lucky. Regardless of the reason, the case remains. I am in this situation, and I feel I am making the best of it by being content with what I have. I try to be generous in times of plenty, patient in times of difficulty, and rather I seek to better myself in seeking the best life I can live, preparing for something greater than this life.
Perhaps, that, then, is the ambition of the comfortable.
New Place
Hey everyone. I'm back up and online, and all snuggled into the new apt in Chandler. It's strange, how I started my life here, and now I've come full circle here for my wedding.
Rachel and I registered today at Bed, Bath, and Beyond. (Every time I hear the name of the store, I think of that episode of The Simpsons!) We went bowling with Brandon, and donated all my old clothes. We spent time with Ava and Khosrow and Shahla, and get this: Natalie became a Bahá'í today! That should be an interesting twist for brandon, but they really seem to be into each other and they seem good for one another. we'll see how this plays out.
Sarah also got the chance to meet them, (FINALLY), and I ordered my tuxedo! Wewt! It's been a fairly productive weekend, all in all... and though this week will be laced with it's ins and outs, I already look forward to this next coming weekend. I guess there's always just so much to do, you never know when it's all done.
Speaking of all done, I'd better crawl into bed as I originally intended before I'M all done.
Rachel and I registered today at Bed, Bath, and Beyond. (Every time I hear the name of the store, I think of that episode of The Simpsons!) We went bowling with Brandon, and donated all my old clothes. We spent time with Ava and Khosrow and Shahla, and get this: Natalie became a Bahá'í today! That should be an interesting twist for brandon, but they really seem to be into each other and they seem good for one another. we'll see how this plays out.
Sarah also got the chance to meet them, (FINALLY), and I ordered my tuxedo! Wewt! It's been a fairly productive weekend, all in all... and though this week will be laced with it's ins and outs, I already look forward to this next coming weekend. I guess there's always just so much to do, you never know when it's all done.
Speaking of all done, I'd better crawl into bed as I originally intended before I'M all done.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Moving Day
Alright everyone, this is it. Moving day. If you don't hear from me for a while, I'm having conflicts with my new services.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
From Dust and Ash
In the desert of a former life
In the sands of past despair and loneliness
Amidst the ashes of a forgotten time
Something stirs
A breeze without wind
A movement in the stillness
Unearths a small, insignificant form
Into the light of day
It is a creature born of love. Her love.
It is her Love that makes the tiny heart beat
That gives it the strength to stand
Against the natural inertia of the great desert
It is her trust that shields it from harm
From the heat and the Destruction of the harsh conditions
Of its own former world
It is her certitude that gives it knowledge
That makes it self aware
That gives it the reasoning to percieve
It is her beauty, her light, that brings it awe.
That opens its eyes to joy
That brings to it a sense of purpose
Her Ardour Courses the fire of life through the creatures veins
Her surety grows into armor... light as feathers, hard as diamond
Her conviction and faith brings it the power to arise from the dust
Her Splendor brings a song to its soul
The phoenix takes flight into a new realm
A realm of limitless skies,
Into a world of endless hope,
where dreams are reality,
and all that is real is a dream
In this world does my heart sing these words
For all ears to hear
These keys can never do the song justice
But the heart knows the song.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Bizzare news
So I'm doing what I should never do, flipping through the news. I gotta tell you, It's Bizzare.
One one newsfeed: Barack Obama is speaking to Troops about the raise he will be giving the soldiers, the support he will give them, and the now-solid timeline to leave Iraq. On another feed, Joe Biden is speaking with a panel on green jobs, who discusses with him the anticipation urban families have for these jobs, to create an infrastructure without a history of segregation, as well as limiting pollution, something everyone can be proud of.
At the same time, there's a discussion on focusing on investment: How 3,000 dollars of investment will pay of in energy costs in 2 years, and how giving organic diets to children in schools saves thousands in health care issues down the road; and how investing in helping peoplee learn to read to prepare them for jobs potentially saves $35,000-$50,000 in jailing these individuals when they do something reactionary.
Then there's the feed from CPAC, the conservative conference, Where someone spent his speech questioning whether or not Hawaii is a part of the United States and whether or not Barack Obama is a US Citizen, and another spent his speech on how Obama took the Republican Ideas last year and used them as his own during the election. They're now discussing how the stimulus package was a bad idea.
...Is this really the news today?
One one newsfeed: Barack Obama is speaking to Troops about the raise he will be giving the soldiers, the support he will give them, and the now-solid timeline to leave Iraq. On another feed, Joe Biden is speaking with a panel on green jobs, who discusses with him the anticipation urban families have for these jobs, to create an infrastructure without a history of segregation, as well as limiting pollution, something everyone can be proud of.
At the same time, there's a discussion on focusing on investment: How 3,000 dollars of investment will pay of in energy costs in 2 years, and how giving organic diets to children in schools saves thousands in health care issues down the road; and how investing in helping peoplee learn to read to prepare them for jobs potentially saves $35,000-$50,000 in jailing these individuals when they do something reactionary.
Then there's the feed from CPAC, the conservative conference, Where someone spent his speech questioning whether or not Hawaii is a part of the United States and whether or not Barack Obama is a US Citizen, and another spent his speech on how Obama took the Republican Ideas last year and used them as his own during the election. They're now discussing how the stimulus package was a bad idea.
...Is this really the news today?
Monday, February 23, 2009
Webhosting down. =(
So why is it whenever one goes to make changes to one's website, said free webhosting site goes down? (that makes me a sad panda).
Granted, I've been working on it for a while, but no one visits my website anyway, so Meh. I just thought it'd be nice to stick my new blog on the RSS feed instead of the old one. still, it was giving me grief. I'll have to work on it later.
Had a nice relaxing weekend. Hung out with my family, watched Iron Man with Rachel and her mom, worked on her sister's computer. (Thing has the same virus my windows system caught, and it's nasty). Packed a bit more, got some laundry done, the usual. Still can't believe I move in less than 2 weeks.
here come the calls for the day.
Granted, I've been working on it for a while, but no one visits my website anyway, so Meh. I just thought it'd be nice to stick my new blog on the RSS feed instead of the old one. still, it was giving me grief. I'll have to work on it later.
Had a nice relaxing weekend. Hung out with my family, watched Iron Man with Rachel and her mom, worked on her sister's computer. (Thing has the same virus my windows system caught, and it's nasty). Packed a bit more, got some laundry done, the usual. Still can't believe I move in less than 2 weeks.
here come the calls for the day.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Bare White Walls
Either I've been locked in an asylum, or I've taken pretty much all of the pictures/posters/etc off of my walls. I'm guessing the latter, as the front door is locked on this side, and my desk is still a mess.
So far, I've got about 9 boxes filled with my library. That includes mostly books, and some DVD's and CD's, for data, movies and music. That, of course, doesn't include whats on my spindles or my media cases with my office stuff.
I'm baffled by the sheer volume of it all. I know i should start sorting what I should be throwing away BEFORE I move, but It'll be a lot easier in the new office, and I'm on a schedule right now. I know me, and I'm prone to get sidetracked when I sort stuff, so best to leave that for later.
I'm doing yet another load of laundry. I'm thinking I GOTTA get rid of this bed, it's past it's point. I just did the dishes, and there's still more in here. I need to throw out the old bath mats and the futon frame, and the broken vaccum, and I just realized there's another two boxes of notebooks for the library.
Aye Caramba.
At least most of the closet is still in boxes. There are sheets and stuff I'll have to pack away, and some old camping stuff I'll have to toss. My Computer hardware will go just before the kitchen. And the scouring must commence soon. As it is, I'm looking for that tube of nail-hole filler I have around here somewhere... (I'm GONNA get that bloody deposit back!)
Closet. hmm... Well crap half this stuff doesn't fit me anymore anyway. I'd better Put that in a place with a plan for it. As for this Nightstand of doom... We'll see just how long I can endure it.
This desk. ...It's a horrible eyesore. It's massive, but its an eyesore. if I still had the inner parts that roll out that wouldn't be so bad, but I don't. I'm really thinking workbench. ...or firewood. But all I would have in it's place until Rachel and I can get a desk shaped to accomidate us both is a tiny little thing.
And Omg I have dresser drawers.
It's amazing all the crap you realize when you're moving. This whole ramble (as if you couldn't tell) has been off the top of my head.
I suppose if I'm even gonna TRY to put this massive projector TV from the 80's on Craigslist, I'd better get a camera and do it now. Otherwise, it'll end up in front of my dumpster come the 7th. It's just not worth moving, with the guns out of sync and all. Besides, I can likely fix up that 32" LCD for a hundred bucks or so.
I've been rambling so long now without any other content to this blog, I'm beginning to wonder if I'm not really in an asylum. ...or at least, belong in one.
Almost forgot. The Sofa and loveseat have to go to Rachel's theatre.
Why am I blogging all of this? No idea. Maybe Im overcaffinated? I guess the brain just has to logistically determine what it is I'm doing, and since there's nobody here to go over this with me, I naturally started writing. This must be by far the most boring blog I've ever written.
So. Rachel and I determined it's picnic time on Valentines day. That should be fun. I was actually willing to go on that red dress run, but she said she didn't put our names in for it. ...I didn't realize there was a deadline. Guess I'm spared the red dress. That means I continue my record of never having been in Drag... except onstage performing "Some Like it Hot". (The part, mind you, is a guy on the run from the mob pretending to be a girl... who has a crush on Marilyn Monroe).
She's right though. It's a goofy thing to do and I'm a goofy guy. I'd probably have a good time. ...I'm sure she'll rope me into it next year. This year, it's our first real Valentine's together. I'd better make it a good picnic. ;-)
So far, I've got about 9 boxes filled with my library. That includes mostly books, and some DVD's and CD's, for data, movies and music. That, of course, doesn't include whats on my spindles or my media cases with my office stuff.
I'm baffled by the sheer volume of it all. I know i should start sorting what I should be throwing away BEFORE I move, but It'll be a lot easier in the new office, and I'm on a schedule right now. I know me, and I'm prone to get sidetracked when I sort stuff, so best to leave that for later.
I'm doing yet another load of laundry. I'm thinking I GOTTA get rid of this bed, it's past it's point. I just did the dishes, and there's still more in here. I need to throw out the old bath mats and the futon frame, and the broken vaccum, and I just realized there's another two boxes of notebooks for the library.
Aye Caramba.
At least most of the closet is still in boxes. There are sheets and stuff I'll have to pack away, and some old camping stuff I'll have to toss. My Computer hardware will go just before the kitchen. And the scouring must commence soon. As it is, I'm looking for that tube of nail-hole filler I have around here somewhere... (I'm GONNA get that bloody deposit back!)
Closet. hmm... Well crap half this stuff doesn't fit me anymore anyway. I'd better Put that in a place with a plan for it. As for this Nightstand of doom... We'll see just how long I can endure it.
This desk. ...It's a horrible eyesore. It's massive, but its an eyesore. if I still had the inner parts that roll out that wouldn't be so bad, but I don't. I'm really thinking workbench. ...or firewood. But all I would have in it's place until Rachel and I can get a desk shaped to accomidate us both is a tiny little thing.
And Omg I have dresser drawers.
It's amazing all the crap you realize when you're moving. This whole ramble (as if you couldn't tell) has been off the top of my head.
I suppose if I'm even gonna TRY to put this massive projector TV from the 80's on Craigslist, I'd better get a camera and do it now. Otherwise, it'll end up in front of my dumpster come the 7th. It's just not worth moving, with the guns out of sync and all. Besides, I can likely fix up that 32" LCD for a hundred bucks or so.
I've been rambling so long now without any other content to this blog, I'm beginning to wonder if I'm not really in an asylum. ...or at least, belong in one.
Almost forgot. The Sofa and loveseat have to go to Rachel's theatre.
Why am I blogging all of this? No idea. Maybe Im overcaffinated? I guess the brain just has to logistically determine what it is I'm doing, and since there's nobody here to go over this with me, I naturally started writing. This must be by far the most boring blog I've ever written.
So. Rachel and I determined it's picnic time on Valentines day. That should be fun. I was actually willing to go on that red dress run, but she said she didn't put our names in for it. ...I didn't realize there was a deadline. Guess I'm spared the red dress. That means I continue my record of never having been in Drag... except onstage performing "Some Like it Hot". (The part, mind you, is a guy on the run from the mob pretending to be a girl... who has a crush on Marilyn Monroe).
She's right though. It's a goofy thing to do and I'm a goofy guy. I'd probably have a good time. ...I'm sure she'll rope me into it next year. This year, it's our first real Valentine's together. I'd better make it a good picnic. ;-)
Monday, January 26, 2009
Wings and a new nest
So, what did you do this weekend?
Rachel and I? Not much. Went to the florist, got some coffee, had some chinese food, Bought a car, got an apartment... went for a walk... same old.
WOW.
Okay so to start, So for the first time in, what, two and a half years now? I have a car again. Check that: I have an SUV. A 2004 mazda tribute, with under 64,000 miles on it. Thing is NICE. It's small for an SUV, handles much like a car, and has all the space we're gonna need for MOVING.
The apartment ASTOUNDS ME. We're getting quite the deal. For around $100 more than I'm paying now, we're getting a 2 bedroom with a pretty good sized master bed, a park nearby, good community in chandler... nice weight room... balcony... we're stoked. Rachel and I both love the place. She won't actually be moving in until the wedding, but it's a good place for her stuff. =)
The apartment was really the reason for the car - It would be about impossible to move otherwise, as I have until now been working across the street. Time for life to move forward, and though everything has been progressing behind the scenes, the outward manifestations seem to be in leaps and bounds.
I'm SO excited. Seriously. The world seems so open right now. I feel like there's nothing we can't do.
Rachel and I? Not much. Went to the florist, got some coffee, had some chinese food, Bought a car, got an apartment... went for a walk... same old.
WOW.
Okay so to start, So for the first time in, what, two and a half years now? I have a car again. Check that: I have an SUV. A 2004 mazda tribute, with under 64,000 miles on it. Thing is NICE. It's small for an SUV, handles much like a car, and has all the space we're gonna need for MOVING.
The apartment ASTOUNDS ME. We're getting quite the deal. For around $100 more than I'm paying now, we're getting a 2 bedroom with a pretty good sized master bed, a park nearby, good community in chandler... nice weight room... balcony... we're stoked. Rachel and I both love the place. She won't actually be moving in until the wedding, but it's a good place for her stuff. =)
The apartment was really the reason for the car - It would be about impossible to move otherwise, as I have until now been working across the street. Time for life to move forward, and though everything has been progressing behind the scenes, the outward manifestations seem to be in leaps and bounds.
I'm SO excited. Seriously. The world seems so open right now. I feel like there's nothing we can't do.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Before Lunch
This morning, on his first day in office our new President Barack Obama woke up, called leaders in the middle east, halted all work at Guantanamo Bay and promised to close it within the year, Froze the pay of all White house staff including himself, banned aides from trying to influence the administration when they leave his staff, banned lobbyists from giving gifts of any size to any member of his administration... had lunch... made mandatory ethics briefings for all members of government, declared that no decision will be made in secrecy in the white house without the approval of a completely separate department, and said he would be ending the war in Iraq.
I, in stark contrast, slept in, woke to his briefing, and looked about my apartment at what I should start packing. I Connected to a few old friends on Facebook, realized my computer needed attention I did not have the time to give it, and walked to work, where I read a beautiful love-note from my beloved fiancee. I was updated on a Pipe outage for AT&T's network in Tennessee and briefed on some new rules concerning one of our network interfacing tools. I am now looking online for a cheap used car to get me through the move to our new apartment I will likely be making in a few weeks, Keeping it warm until our wedding in July when Rachel moves in.
I am, even as I write, trying to bridge the gap between myself and a man who seems hard of learning to get him connected to the internet. Before lunch, I expect trials of different kinds.
Still, I am looking forward to a productive year. Rachel and I fell onto this apartment complex much as we did our engagement... quickly. But it's what we both want. It won't be easy, but nothing worth doing is. The thought of our being married in July warms my heart to no end. I look forward to even things like paying the bills with her, as rediculous as it sounds, and to keeping our nest warm until she gets there. I love her with all my heart and soul.
Well, time to get back to the daily grind. After all, it's this work that will help give us the means to establish our life of... umm... more work, really. =) But work of different kinds, throughout our life together. I couldn't be more anticipatory of what's to come.
I, in stark contrast, slept in, woke to his briefing, and looked about my apartment at what I should start packing. I Connected to a few old friends on Facebook, realized my computer needed attention I did not have the time to give it, and walked to work, where I read a beautiful love-note from my beloved fiancee. I was updated on a Pipe outage for AT&T's network in Tennessee and briefed on some new rules concerning one of our network interfacing tools. I am now looking online for a cheap used car to get me through the move to our new apartment I will likely be making in a few weeks, Keeping it warm until our wedding in July when Rachel moves in.
I am, even as I write, trying to bridge the gap between myself and a man who seems hard of learning to get him connected to the internet. Before lunch, I expect trials of different kinds.
Still, I am looking forward to a productive year. Rachel and I fell onto this apartment complex much as we did our engagement... quickly. But it's what we both want. It won't be easy, but nothing worth doing is. The thought of our being married in July warms my heart to no end. I look forward to even things like paying the bills with her, as rediculous as it sounds, and to keeping our nest warm until she gets there. I love her with all my heart and soul.
Well, time to get back to the daily grind. After all, it's this work that will help give us the means to establish our life of... umm... more work, really. =) But work of different kinds, throughout our life together. I couldn't be more anticipatory of what's to come.
A new Blog Site
For the Time being, I've transferred my blog to http://phoenix-919.blogspot.com. I will set it up to show on my other sites. Hopefully, it turns out well.
I haven't been able to update my blogs from elsewhere, I have no access to facebook or myspace from work and I am out of touch, or rather, others have been out of touch with me. Hopefully this will help to bridge that gap.
Rachel's and my 6-month "Preversary" (I love that term) was the other day, and already we've got many plans in the mix for the days and weeks ahead. more on that soon.
I'm loggin in @ work now, but Hopefully I'll be able to start my next topic soon.
I haven't been able to update my blogs from elsewhere, I have no access to facebook or myspace from work and I am out of touch, or rather, others have been out of touch with me. Hopefully this will help to bridge that gap.
Rachel's and my 6-month "Preversary" (I love that term) was the other day, and already we've got many plans in the mix for the days and weeks ahead. more on that soon.
I'm loggin in @ work now, but Hopefully I'll be able to start my next topic soon.
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