What I don't want, is to be that guy whose wife goes home after work, then makes and eats dinner alone, straightens up the apartment because she's lonely, watches some TV or putzes around on the computer, then, when I FINALLY get home, she's ready for bed.
I don't want to be that guy. I realize now if I don't changer my hours soon, that's the marriage I'm consigning her to.
Damnit if I can't sacrifice my "late" hours for her happiness. Damnit if I can't be a worthy husband for her. Damnit if I can't change the way I've lived the last five years for the woman I've asked to marry me and share my life. Otherwise, I'd deserve this hole I'm digging myself into.
I love the woman I'm going to marry. I'd do anything for her. So how then do I balance being responsible when I barely wake up in time for work as it is? I certainly can't loose my job by not showing up on time. That would negate the whole "being responsible" thing. But so would leaving her to lonely nights and single place-settings for dinner.
Looks like I'm going to become a morning person. I'd better get my S*** together soon. The wedding's in 102 days (For which I am smiling GRANDLY). Invitations are already in the mail. (Mostly, I still have a couple addresses I need to collect).
Exactly. Focus on what you want -- what you both want -- and move in that direction. The universe will provide once you start going for what you need.
ReplyDeleteYou know that you are quite capable of doing it. Looks like I will be doing the same thing soon. Suffer through it in the beginning and you will be fine in the end. =)
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